It's 12:41, it's 35 degrees outside, it's lonely here without you, it's hard to face the new day, it's even harder when you have nothing to look forward to, so sleep, sleep, come for me. Goodnight.
As most of you know, the holidays really bring me down. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, a tradition which I want no part of. My own Thanksgiving tradition of eating pizza will however, take place. If anyone wants to join me, you are more than welcome.
Black Friday is coming! This is pretty much the last day I have to go out & feel comfortable enough to rub elbows with the shopping savages. So for the most part I will be house-bound until 2005 – this really fucking depresses me.
Maybe this time of year wouldn’t hurt so much if I had a family who understood, cared or who were even tolerable? It’s a shame too, because Christmas used to be my favorite holiday. I think that all changed that night when I was lost in Oakland, drunk & crying while sitting in the middle of the street. Good times…
Well it's here, single of the year. The first Wedding Present single in over 7 years. It's beautiful, it's wonderful & it's all mine. This is the way music should be made - I'm in love.
They say that the eyes are the windows to the soul. But if that’s the case then the mouth is the front door. To me, there is nothing more intimate then kissing. I know that seems strange to some, most people probably don’t give second thought to kissing… not me. I won’t kiss just anyone; I don’t want to kiss just anyone. And right now there is only one person who I want to kiss.
Exactly two months ago we had our first kiss & I am still just as excited everytime our lips touch.
Why is it that everytime you flip to the TV GUIDE channel to figure out what you are watching, it is never anywhere near the TV listing that you want.
I feel the need to lay some rumors to rest… The answer is yes. I, Christopher Brandon do have a girlfriend. I know it may come as a shock to everyone - I know it still seems unbelievable for myself. Years have gone by since someone has wanted to take my hand & it’s a feeling that is beyond new for me. I have severe doubts that I could be of any use for someone & I really need to learn how to look beyond such insecurities and I am trying. God knows I am trying, I want things to work, I want to live life not being so alone all the time. But of course, you know me, I need my alone time still. And at the moment I am getting way too much of it, for the girl who has my heart lives 413.30 miles from my house. Or in non-calculating terms, in Southern California (gross, I know).
Anyways, the girl, whose name is Kayla, is simply amazing… she has the biggest eyes and the kindest heart that has ever graced me. And god, the way our lips touch is the most amazing sensation that this world has ever known. God, I miss that… I miss her.
A boy like me, with this much unbridled passion is a crime. The world isn’t ready for me, isn’t ready for us.
By no means don’t think that I am not the same boy you once knew, I am very much still myself. It’s just now, well now, I have another extension of me. How is it that you can still grow in character at the age of twenty-five?
It just dawned on me… I am a very flirtatious human being. All this time I thought I was just being nice & playful but no, I am a sinister boy whose sexuality is unmatched. So if I bat my eyeballs at you, pay me no mind, it’s my insatiable hunger for attention. It’s the only-child in me.
Halo 2 came out today - my panties are wet just thinking about it. Oops, there I go again, flirting. Seriously, I need for someone to take away the Xbox, it’s consuming me!
Hey four pounds to go before I get my tweezers back. It’s sad that my motivation for losing weight is plucking hair. My priorities are fucked; I should want to lose weight for the important things in my life, like making myself sexier for the “girl” & to fit back into all my sexy-boy clothing.
Dustin & I are going to go see National Treasure this weekend. It’s my notion that it will be the worst film ever made. Normally I wouldn’t give money to such filth but I have to see for myself, I mean this might be the most preposterous idea of film history. Oh and that sexy Sean Bean is in it. I love my Sean Bean. I live on the wrong side of the Atlantic.
I want to go dancing because I haven’t done so in ages. And this boy needs to pop-lock on the floor.
Hey, I have just completed disc two of my annual diary. If you know what that means then you might be excited. If you don’t, well then… it’s really no loss. Who wants to do some CD swapping? I have been in need of music from outside people.
Three things I have always been afraid of:
1. Someone falling in love with me.
2. Herpes.
3. Someone falling out of love with me.
