October 30, 2004
October 16, 2004
life log part II
My life from 2:35 pm – 11:19 am
2:51 went downstairs and laid down with each of my cats & aunt’s cats.
3:32 finished cat-napping and finished off ¼ of a box of Count Chocula.
3:38 commenced in finishing off lemonade. Note: Lemonade & Count Chocula = bad.
4:17 started taking apart my stereo because it is fucked up.
4:23 received a call from Kayla.
5:32 turned on fox sports to get sleeper help for fantasy football.
6:17 my cousin walks in the door & we leave to our usual dinner spot.
6:20 he tells me that his sister got suspended from school. (Janna, you are so wild).
6:49 Wendy’s is slamming. I ask for sweet n’ sour sauce and the employee keeps handing me barbecue sauce instead.
7:24 Justin takes me to Target to buy the new Mos Def record & to get cash to go see TEAM AMERICA…
8:10 the hunt for Justin’s Batman costume takes us to our first of 3 Halloween superstores.
8:16 Ray calls me to tell me he will be Mario for Halloween.
8:17 I start brainstorming on good Halloween costumes. I come up with Sledgehammer & David Crosby
8:35 we enter the second Halloween superstore. An adorable set of sisters with their mom are checking me out. (I know my hair was kickin’). We then overhear the mother telling one of them to quit looking at me and that I am “too old”.
8:36 I am flattered.
8:45 Dustin calls me and asks, “What’s going on?” We tell him about our movie plans and make him look up the film’s last showing. It’s at 9:20 & I know we aren’t going to make it
8:49 Justin finally gets help about his costume and he instantly drools over the girl at the counter who tells a bunch of youngins’ that they only have 5 minutes to “pretend to shop”. Justin & I are instantly amazed of her control of the situation and I think he falls in love with her.
9:15 Dustin arrives to my house and we do not make any attempt to scramble to the theatre.
9:35 Ray picks us up for banana splits in which none of us get banana splits. I settle for cherry vanilla & champagne sherbet. Don’t get the champagne sherbet.
10:00 I make Dustin put on his shoes and go with me to the post office while listening to Mos Def.
10:34 Kayla calls; I make her talk to Dustin to tell him about her friend “Dot”. Whose real name is, I believe, is Jen. Dustin jokingly says that he will “cut himself every night while thinking about Dot.” He’s joking, I think?
11:03 we get home & watch TV.
01:03 Dustin goes home. I make a phone call.
02:29 I resist touching myself.
02:45 I insist on touching myself
3:13 I stop touching myself completely frustrated and with a new cut on my cock from digging my fingernails in. I then realize I haven’t had an orgasm in 4 days. I think I am about due. Why does my cock hate me?
3:29 I wash-up, brush my teeth and hop into bed. Unshowered – the third time this year I have done so.
4:18 the last time I see the clock before I sleep.
9:00 Alarm goes off I brush my teeth and head downstairs to talk about the plans of going to a collectors fair with my mother.
9:10 Aunt Barbara is over and talking to my mother.
10:35 I still haven’t asked if we were our going to the fair.
10:37 I decide to shower because I am filthy.
10:55 I am listening to Sparks while drying off & putting my clothes on.
11:12 I realize I have spaced-out & I do not know what is going on.
11:18 I decide to update this place.
11:19 I realize just how dull my life truly is.
October 15, 2004
shangri-la
My day as of 2:32 PM
11:15 Woke up late from the Trazodone, kept dreaming of Mark in my room while I was looking for my Dizzee Rascal record.
11:28 debated whether or not to jerk off. Instead I chose to brush my teeth & shower.
11:34 I finally decided on what record to put on while in the shower. Flying Burrito Brother’s “The Gilded Palace of Sin” is a great record to start your day with.
11:52 Turned on my computers, checked e-mail, wrote e-mails & dressed.
12:26 Decided to call people for lunch. Nobody could make it so I slowly head downstairs to steal my family’s food.
12:46 finally had the genius idea to make lonesome Chile chicken chimichangas, a meal which I have never made before.
1:12 While the first chimichanga is frying, I am blasting a British invasion boxed set which I purchased for my mother for mother’s day. It’s rockin’ & I am devouring my first coca-cola of the day.
1:36 I sit down to eat & much to my surprise, my chimichanga plate is one of the best meals I have ever had.
1:38 I decide that this meal will forever be in my cooking arsenal.
1:39 I realize just how much I miss cooking.
1:48 I realize just how much I do not miss the clean-up.
2:03 almost turn on Passions. Instead I grab my Netflix DVD’s & get excited to see Dream On season 1.
2:07 I check my e-mail again.
2:09 I turn on the Xbox.
2:24 I no longer feel like playing Xbox.
2:25 I debate on jerking off again. And again I don’t.
2:26 I log onto Myspace.com and respond to messages.
2:29 I decide to update my journal & share my boring day while listening to the Kinks.
October 13, 2004
fire sky
Yesterday the sky was neon orange with the choking smell of a wild fire in the air.
Ick, I am too fat at the moment. I keep telling myself, "okay, tomorrow morning I am going running". But it's obvious that I haven't been. In fact, I have gained 5 pounds in 2 days. I hate this body, I hate this face, I hate this brain. But I do love - love & my cats & pizza with real, soft mozzarella! Let's eat.
I knew I should have bought the new Mos Def record today. I suck.
stroke me - stroke me
ChrstphrBrndn: monopoly, 21, checkers & chess - yeah yeah yeah yeah!
ChrstphrBrndn: good afternoon dear
cheaptriX: chinese checkers?
cheaptriX: good afternoon gorgeous!
ChrstphrBrndn: of course, chinese checkers is much more fun
ChrstphrBrndn: ooooh-la-la, gorgeous - my ego is being stroked
cheaptriX: yeah...you should get on IM more often so I can stroke you
ChrstphrBrndn: hahahhaa oh evil!!!!
cheaptriX: :P
ChrstphrBrndn: everything leads to STROKING!
ChrstphrBrndn: ask Billy Squier
cheaptriX: I was JUST going to say THAT!
ChrstphrBrndn: hey, wouldn't it be funny if Billy Squier died of a stroke?
ChrstphrBrndn: how ironic!
cheaptriX: HA
cheaptriX: wouldn't it be even more ironic if he died of a stroke while getting stroked?
ChrstphrBrndn: hahahha oh you always have to one-up me!
October 12, 2004
rockberry jam is her jelly
In order to achieve greatness you must take risks, right? I’ve noticed that the same rule applies to relationships. I have been so closed-off, so... scared to let anyone back in. I’m hesitant but god, she is worth any risk that may come between us. I am willing to do what it takes in order to reach that so called ‘greatness’. She makes me feel so beautiful when I am next to her. It’s a feeling in which is foreign to me & I am trying to play it off as cool as possible but playing it cool isn’t me… And looking into her eyes makes my heart beat faster.
October 09, 2004
October 06, 2004
jimmy olsen's dilemma
Besides, 'total shit', what genre would you classify the Spin Doctor's "Pocket Full of Kryptonite" under?
And "Rock" is not an option.