This week I received my first Christmas card of the season. Where has the time gone? I swear I didn’t even have Halloween yet. Time is strange like that. It’s almost as if my days are spent suspended in the space-time continuum & the years, well they just escape me so quickly. I suppose that is the case when you’re older… You no longer have anything to look forward to & you wind-down the days of your life in a blur. God, how depressing… I need to start living in the “now”, rather than being stuck in the past or dreading the future. I’ve always had a problem living in the moment or enjoying it even. Which is completely absurd because for once in my life I have someone who loves me & wants to be with me. I have yet to figure out how to be a good boyfriend but I swear to you, I am working on it.
Anyways, back to the Christmas card… I wrote my very first Christmas song. It’s silly & recorded & sung poorly. It’s about receiving a Christmas card from a person in whom you’ve had a falling out with. It seems that Christmas time brings out the forgiveness & courage that we don’t normally behold. There is something very… errrmmm, “traditional” (for lack of better words) about the end of the year, it’s nice. I know for a fact that there are people who I miss terribly during this time of year. But its nights like this where my loneliness gets the best of me & I miss a lot of things. Some in which I could never really admit to. We always have memories, right? Well, that and of course Christmas.
Your Christmas Card
Don’t even have the words for goodbye.
Write it all down, it’s Christmas time.
Sending me your best wished
& you apologize
Should I forget? – It’s Christmas time.
Maybe next year we can have another try?
Well, things aren’t so clear – It’s Christmas time.
Wishing you were here telling your little lies
I probably won’t hear from you next Christmas time.